Is it bad to want more?
I want more attention
More love
I want to feel his arms around me
I want to feel his love
His touch
I want to feel safe again
I want some peace
Free me
Will the wounds ever heal?
I want to forget
Stop screaming
I want to sleep peacefully again
I want him here
Watching me
I want his love to make me feel warm
I want his arms around me
Protecting me
I want to stop waking up screaming for him to save me
I want pleasant dreams
Peaceful sleep
I just want him here and not there
I will always love you
Forever
Did you know I used to be social?
Did you know no one attended my birthdays?
Did you know they forgot about me?
Did you know I was violated?
Did you know it shattered me?
Did you know I stopped talking to people because of it?
Did you know I became engrossed in music?
Did you know I used to hurt myself?
Did you know I overdosed?
Did you know I held a gun to my head?
Did you know I found interest in World of Warcraft?
Did you know I started talking again?
Did you know I wanted to live again?
Did you know I loved him?
Did you know that the one I 'loved' broke me after I had just sewn myself together?
Did you know I moved on?
Did
You don't know me
You don't know what races through my mind
You don't know what it feels like
You don't know about how paranoid I am
You don't know the fear I hide
You don't know how lonely I am
You don't know how I wake up screaming
You don't know why I am so paranoid
You don't know the voices I hear
You don't know about the demons I battle
You don't know how hard it is
You don't know why I like the alcohol
You don't know why I like pain
You don't know the secrets I hide
You don't know what hurts me
You don't know why I don't like to be near people
You don't know why I fear touch
You don't know why I listen to music
You do
I will no longer be submitting anymore of my art/writings.
More and more people are stealing artwork since they know DA staff will not do anything about it unless its 'legal copyright'
I know I don't have the best of art to steal from but just that nagging feeling of the fact that someone COULD steal it just worries me a lil
Stuck over at my grandmothers for the holidays with a laptop thats sputtering to keep working.
I can barely talk to my boyfriend let alone get on WoW and talk to my guildmates/friends
I wanted to work on my story but I am kinda just staring at it going 'No one is gonna like thissss T_T I need to change this add this tweak this' but if I do that itll mess up alot DX
I would write from the beginning but I am quite proud of what I have written so far
I've been thinking of RPing. It seems like a nice, fun thing to do but again my self conscious is beating my skull with 'You're horribly awkward and will end up messing everything up like alway
There was a spat with my dad that I will not delve into but he kinda just told me my art work sucks and no one will like it :/
So I wont be creating anything for a while.
I'll most likely lay in bed...thinking...